Archive - Alex Awello

I Never Found Meaning. But I’ve Built a Meaningful Life

I’m in school at 15 and my teachers ask me:

Sep 22 • Alex Awello

How My Poop Changed How I Saw Myself

I wiped my ass with an empty cardboard roll because I was too embarrassed...

Sep 22 • Alex Awello

I Was More Myself Online Than in Real Life

As a kid, I spent most of my time outside of school just playing video games.

Sep 15 • Alex Awello

I Was Different Around Everyone

Growing up, I was a different version of myself around basically everyone.

Sep 8 • Alex Awello

I Let School Decide Who I Was

I’m 5 years old in kindergarten, and all my friends are playing with their toys…

Sep 1 • Alex Awello

August 2026

My Life Got Bigger Than My Bedroom

I didn’t quit gaming. My life just got bigger.

Aug 25 • Alex Awello

I Thought I Had to Be Special to Do Great Things

Why I stopped using who I was to decide who I could become.

Aug 18 • Alex Awello

I Thought My Life Was Useless

I thought failure was showing me who I was. I was just reading my story too early.

Aug 16 • Alex Awello

I Thought My Mistakes Were Ruining My Life

But the life I wanted required me to make them.

Aug 15 • Alex Awello

I Thought Negative Feelings Meant Something Was Wrong

The feeling was real. What I thought it meant wasn’t.

Aug 13 • Alex Awello

I Thought the World Was Getting Worse

I thought I understood the world without experiencing it.

Aug 11 • Alex Awello

I Thought I Was a Failure

I failed my drivers test four times. I thought I was a failure.

Aug 9 • Alex Awello

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